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|Friday, April 13th, 2007|
As some already know I changed my name but I couldn't be arsed to change my livejournal profile! But I finally gathered the energy.Click here for my new account! Current Mood: contemplative
|Wednesday, April 4th, 2007|
There are a lot of things that need to be said, but I don't have the patience. :/
Beer, chocolate and amazing people! That's what I was peomised, I didn't count on finding stuff I adore here! ;)
Shopping as the heart orders!!
|Thursday, March 29th, 2007|
Yeah, well, actually 30th of March did finally come.
I'm nervous like fuck and I'm yelling and screaming and going crazy!!
Money, ticket, walkman and camera. Check!
Make-up and stuff. Check!
Luggage. Lol! Check!
Ah well! Myself?
Grrr! I'm not sure! Ah well! just a couple of hours more till I go to bed and then it shall be better! I hate waiting to leave! I just want to be on my way already!!!
Lately I've been reading some!
Charles Bukowski - Post Office
Yukio Mishima - Utage No Ato [After the Party]
Andre Gide - The Pigeon
and in between I read and I'm still reading Out of Body Experiences - How to Have Them and What to Expect by Robert Peterson.
I also got very interested in butoh and I watched a movie called - Dance of Darkness  which is very educational and pretty well made. It contains interviews, part of dances, it's like a crash course.
*inhales* It shall be ok! And if it's not I can always snap my fingers and imagine myself some place else! ;) Current Mood: nervous
|Thursday, March 8th, 2007|
I passed my Rhetorics exam. Yay!!
Less than a month till I'm off to Belgium.... c'mon time pass faster... please!
|Monday, March 5th, 2007|
So it's March already. Woah!
I went out and I bought this... Can't wait to see what happens... I'm into the 2nd chapter already and ideas swarming in my head.
Current Mood: tired
[click to enlarge]
[I like writing quotes on my books]
What else? Yeah well, I'm waiting for my exam result.
|Friday, February 23rd, 2007|
I know people don't actually read this, however I feel bad about not saying that life ain't *that* evil!!
My website project is still on. I'm studying for an exam and wasting my time a lot.
I contacted a photographer 2 days ago, I only got round to send him some pictures today. I'm kinda getting restless about not doing a thing. But I guess it's just the desire to do anything but the stuff I have to.
I've been obsession over Good Charlotte's The River. The director, Marc Webb, is amazing! Hands down! I mean AFI's Miss Murder had such an amazing concept and The River beautifully matches that!
Mr. Webb is my new favorite person! *grins*
I also bought books. The well known 'How to Kill a Mockingbird' by Harper Lee - a book I've been trying to find for more than a year. I also got myself the theater pieces by Sartre. Too bad there's no time to read.
I've started Harper's book and although I didn't like the way it was written at first I got used to it. Racism it's not one of my favorite subjects, however biography is.
I also got interested in 3D images. I'm just curious I guess.
Talking about photos, I registered on Fotolia
, my username is DrewCatnip. I'm curious to see if it works. I seem to use DeviantArt a lot too these days. Creativity striked!!
Right now I'm listening to radio recording of Beautiful Music for Ugly Children from Feb 19 2007. They are really good! You should check them
out if you're into deathrock and gothic rock! Current Mood: contemplative
|Sunday, February 18th, 2007|
It's been such a slow day. There's nothing nice to do in this life anymore. I wanted to read but I had nothing worth reading in my house. No new book. Nothing.
And even more joy! My web design project might never happen! Now why did I postpone so many stuff for it??
And more so, why are people ALWAYS letting me down! Especially those I count on! DARN!
Where's that damn peak of a mountain I can live on?
And wait... it can still get worse than this!! Current Mood: frustrated
|Saturday, February 17th, 2007|
Yesterday, cause it's after midnight, I went out with my friend Roxanne. She's not my sister but she's a good reason why life is pretty.
Since the second we met everything seemed right. We hugged in the railroad station more than necessary but I missed her so.
In the bus station I made an ass of myself by making jokes. I ended up crying. Then I told her we're a disgrace to the Romanian goth scene, that's goths shouldn't laugh - you can guess what happened... hysterical laughs.
She gave me back the money she borrowed from me so I decided to buy a ring like she has. No such luck! It's a big ring with a big black polished stone. :( Maybe next time!
Although it was freezing like hell I wanted a vanilla milk shake from McDonalds. Of course we started laughing the second we got there. I kept suggesting, in jest, to remain there and Roxanne kept laughing. All the eyes were on us of course.
My sis got two hamburgers, I got my shake and we left.
We decided to go to this public place - a little bit like a interior garden [next time I'll take pics] and stay on the concrete benches.
There i vented my spleen about home and mom. Roxanne understands. I gotta leave if I don't wanna become a no one. After all the anger was gone we left for our favorite shop. And shop we did! I had to give money to her again since she wanted this top.
Then after a little trip to Mc again we decided it's too fucking cold to wander the streets, with much regret my sis decided she has time to catch a 7.30 pm train.
Our meeting ended up making plans for the summer and hoping all will be good in the world.
Thank you for a wonderful day sis!!
my new top: Current Mood: cheerful
|Thursday, February 15th, 2007|
I finally got round to sew the lace to the new blouse I bought.
And I did a new manipulation. Click here
|Wednesday, February 14th, 2007|
I can't say my life is terrible... I just live. That's it!!
I miss Roxanne terribly! I can't wait to see her!!
An old friend of mine wants me to work on webdesign for him. It's good to know I'll make some money.
I wanted to find a job but with uni being hectic and this webdesign thing I just want to find something part time or just give some private lessons.
My only link with the deathrock scene in Romania has vanished. I guess I'm just THAT unlucky.
There's some good news though. I'm planning on going to Belgium this spring. I also planned to see Germany this summer. But I don't know anymore. I want to get to Prague for Drop Dead.
I'm doing better since yesterday I went out and bought a blouse. I hate the amount of looking you have to do to find good looking clothes in this shit hole!!
[click to enlarge] Current Mood: blank
|Wednesday, January 31st, 2007|
I've been depressed for like a week now... It's slowly fading away or I'm getting used to this cause I'm kinda sick and tired of this hopeless feeling....
Last week I met Morgue twice and we had a really nice time together and I actually felt good, then it got worse and worse. I met my friends and they acted like assholes.
My bf at that time started making fun of my life style... it made me feel terrible. Then one of our mutual friends started a discussion about racism, homophobia and music... since my ex bf agreed with that stuff I just shut up and let that guy say the worse stuff that came to his mind about the said subjects... I felt terrible when I realized I just erased everything I am and believe in.
It's been a loooong time since I didn't defend the things I believe in and that ugly feeling started eating my happiness away.
Afterwards this guy I like more than I dare admit kinda disappeared from the internet and it left an uneasy feeling.
Now he's back but I don't know if I should talk to him... I'm confused.
The only good thing that came out of this weekend - beside realizing that I have to defend what I believe in [a feeling I still didn't accept] - is that I started learning how to play guitar again, a poem, that my friends do love me [Trine, Kris and Morgue tried their best to cheer me up] and some music compilations that I love lots.
Virgin Prunes, Specimen, Skeletal Family,
Rob Zombie, Screams for Tina, March Violets,
My Life With the Thrill Kill Kult, Echo and the Bunnymen,
Danse Society, Bauhaus, Alien Sex Fiend, Adam and the Ants,
Red Lorry Yellow Lorry, Ausgang, Killing Joke etc.
That's the only thing that makes me smile nowadays.... music oh! and Jazz the Jackrabbit! I wanna finish that game again! Current Mood: blank
|Sunday, January 21st, 2007|
|It's very strange....
For a couple of days now I've been having this strange feeling deep inside...
It all started with remembering the little witchcraft I did on Saint Andrew's day trying to see the face of the one I'll marry.
There's a tradition in our country and little tricks that show you the one you'll marry.
It worked for mom and grandma so I tried it....
First time I tried it last Easter and I tried it again on Saint Andrew's day. The tradition says I should put lavender under my pillow and go to bed and so I did. This time many pictures of men felt from the ceiling in front of my eyes and one stood out. It was a man in his 20's, in a dark attire, he had longer hair, combed back and he had a 'big' brow.
The second time I had to bake a really salty little bread, put a glass of water close and go to bed; the one would be the man who would offer me a glass of water. I dreamt of a man with deathhawk, a leather jacket and we were somehow in a bar and he were sitting at a table to drink juice. He wasn't pretty different from the first face I saw. Unfortunately the phone rang and the dream ended.
I did of course dreamt of many men that time too but this one stood out.
I'm trying not to be paranoid but why is that I dreamt of a man in these particular nights. I am trying to dream of him again but I can't seem to do it again.
And this is not it... it gets even more silly.
So this night [2 or 3 nights ago] I dreamt of Motorrock [a festival I didnt yet go to but I'm planning to go this year] and I was with my bf, Morgue and some other friends. So we get in - me with my hair up, my shaved sides showing, dressed as a deathrocker and with my bag that actually has deathrock written on it since a month ago or something - and this guy comes over to me and tells me he wants to show me something [he saw the bag that's how he spotted me] and I dunno how I meet his brother who was a real deathrocker and we hook up. He tells me his name is Phil or something. And we were walking around and then my bf got hooked up with this bitch and when I went over he was holding her and didn't let her go to come over at me, but I didn't make a scene out of it. I also remember Phil asking a very old friend of his to drive me around with his motorbike [very old and sexy motorbike]; so the old guy digs me and we ride around. His name was Petru.
Ok, the silly thing is. I remembered the dream when I was coming from shopping. And I was looking around and my eyes stop on the number of this car... that was blah blah PHL, which I though resembled the name Phil too much and then a feet in front of me was written Petru on the concrete. I stopped dead in my tracks.
This is just too silly.
Therefore every night I just think of this guy I've been dreaming. It's just too strange. The boy in my dreams didn't have a face so I dunno if it's 'the one' or not but I'm getting very disturbed.
Can you miss someone you never met? I dunno... but if this guy that's just for me and me alone exists I wish he'd come sooner! :(
[the pics are resized, click on the to see them in their full size] Current Mood: anxious
|Thursday, January 11th, 2007|
It took me about an hour and a half to do this. It's from the photoshoot on December the 4th, 2006.
I think it's great!! Current Mood: artistic
|Wednesday, January 10th, 2007|
...but it was worth it! ;) I've pierced my tragus!!
Cristi [@ www.tattoo-studio.ro
] gave me a t-shirt that I plan on wearing as soon as I get to have my way with it!! That guy is amazing!! I ADORE him!!!!
...plus piercing my tragus was too cheap to be real! :P Current Mood: happy
|Sunday, December 31st, 2006|
A month has passed and I don't even know when.
What can I say? I am happy!! Truly amazingly happy!! I wont be so happy when I'll start failing exams but it was worth it.
I've been partying and going out. I have a little group of friends now.
So no, I didn't die I'm alive and kicking.
Oh and... "love might be the last legal drug". *huge grin* Current Mood: excited
|Wednesday, December 13th, 2006|
...so I went out today with Morgue and Freddy. Morgue didn't want to go in DV and I wanted to... BADLY. Which kinda put me in a bad mood. This is stupid. I still like that place! :'(
Plus we went to this pizza place and people where starring at us and we had to listen to bad music. I prefer the same scene every night to that!!! Shitty!
We had fun but overall it left me in some sort of bad mood. Hope this uneasy feeling will leave me!
...And my throat is still sore. I hate this so so so much!! I'm gonna go eat a lemon with salt and watch Children of Bodom videoclips. :) Current Mood: blah
|Tuesday, December 12th, 2006|
...went by in a blur... I've been partying and having a good time. As depressed as I was on Friday as happy I am now.
I'm sick though. I caught a cold at the parties. So now I'm locked in the house missing my friend.
I haven't seen Morgue in more than a week and a half cause she was sick too. Tomorrow we are going out. Freddy is coming too. I'm planning to take them to eat a pizza and just talk about stuff. Hope it will turn out ok.
I hope I won't get sick tomorrow and I can go in DV this Thursday. I miss that place!!
Not much but I have so many memories trapped in my head that I don't wanna set loose for fear they might lose their power.
I made new friends this weekend and they are great!! :) Current Mood: cheerful
|Wednesday, December 6th, 2006|
Monday was great!!! Here is the proof!!! It was freezing as hell! As you can see there was a fog. If you don't believe me contact another Romanian that lives around Ploiesti. ;)
They are not in order and I'm sick and tired of trying...
First there was the rock, the field, the stairs, up on the bridge, down on the railroad, the tree, me and my friend, the forest, the ivy, the wall and the end.Click here!
All pics are taken by Freddy. All pics' ideas are mine. They are resized and some photoshopped. I use a Panasonic DMC-LZ5.
I do have others. I also took pics of Freddy. If you want more contact me on yahoo messenger: drewcatnip.
|Monday, December 4th, 2006|
I had an amazing and tiresome weekend and I can't go to sleep so I thought I should update this before I start neglecting it.
Friday I've been waiting for Morgue to come to town and I hoped she would stay all through the weekend. She came to Ploiesti rather late, at 7 pm. We didn't know what to do... to stay home or go out. In the end I was walking around my house not knowing what to do while she checked her email when she just said she wants to go out. It took me a while to get ready but we finally left home around 8 and something.
We took a taxi cause it was December 1st and since it was National Day everything was moving like they were dead. It was also cold.
In the cab this annoying driver started 20 questions.
He was oh so happy to have rockers in his cab and he asked for bands we like. Morgue and I started saying bands, we would say a band and the other one would say another one... it was cute [I said The 69 Eyes, Placebo, AFI, 45 Grave, Nosferatu, Cinema Strange, Cradle of Filth - Morgue got angry that I said it instead of her and she said Dope Stars Inc and we laughed]. And then the asshole started giving us the 'rockers are violent' and 'they make noise not music' shit [funny thing is Morgue likes a lot symphonic gothic rock and she named so many bands that played it]. So I cleared my throat and gave him the 'tastes are subjective so we're gonna have this discussion all night and not reach any conclusion' and the 'a lot of the people with higher studies - like college - listen to rock. All of my collegues at college listen to it'. I also took great care to add that rock music has lyrics that contain content that is worth being read and thought over unlike other genres that are a sign of unculture. Of course he shut his fucking mouth! Stupid people need logic reasons! He pissed me off so much!!
So we went in Del Vecchio [DV] and well... I had my hair up, my shaved sides showing and I got the most amazing and shitty looks ever. The bar was packed and it was like I was out with the bear. I had my head touched, kissed, made fun of and I've been asked so many questions.... There were people who liked it a lot too!! I think I never spelt a word so much as 'deathrocker'. Of course they thought it was some sort of food or something... really sad...
It was great that I had Morgue with me and she's supportive. She calmed me down when at times it was too much to take.
When we got home we stood around online, listening to music and chatting. We went to bed at 7 am and got up at 1 pm.
I wanted to go shopping for a corset, a black shirt and boots. We woke up too late and we were too tired so we said fuck it.
I don't remember where time went by but it soon turned into 4-ish. I wanted to go buy make-up and we decided to make an appearance in DV.
We also had a party invitation but we decided against going. Morgue had to go home [pregnant moms are no fun] and I had a project to hand in on Sunday [project I couldn't do all week... I had to leave it for Saturday night cause I'm that lazy :( ].
This time I let my hair down but teased it. Morgue loved the new look so she took some pics of me.
I bought my make-up things: a pencil and some eye shadow - both purple, since I decided I can't wear black anymore. I don't like it.
DV wasn't so cool on Saturday and all our friend's were getting ready to leave for that party. We hanged around for an hour and then we left for the train station. I didn't went with Morgue to wait for her train I decided I should go home and work on that project which I finished around 4 am.
I had to wash my hair cause it was just too teased and I got only 2 hours of sleep before I went to those courses. I got 88 points out of 100 and so my management course is done.
Afterwards: shopping, eating, sleeping, sitting around online, trying to get more sleep and failing, writing on livejournal.
Tomorrow morning my friend Freddy is coming over for a too-early-in-the-morning photoshoot. I will be dead tired but I hope I'll survive and that he'll be able to take some nice pics of me. Current Mood: drained